Oh so frustrated! Since he's been put up to 53mLs he has been spitting up so freaking bad. The past few times has been half of his feeds! I want to cry because this is what is stopping him from coming home. Stopping him from spending thanksgiving with his family. I got to go visit him and everyone else on thanksgiving. I don't want to visit him in the hospital. I want him to be with us in his car seat spending the holiday with his family. I'm so frustrated. I feel so weak right now.
I feel like our family isn't complete without him here. I want Justin to start getting use to his little brother. I want to be able to feel like a mother of 2. I hate visit him in the hospital and spending an hour or two with him. It's not fair to him. It's not fair to us. I want to enjoy my baby boy! Ugh. Sorry for the long vent