Day 18

Sorry that I haven't updated in a while. Not much has changed he's being fed 3 times a day now! It's amazing. Today he did 20mLs but spit up a lot of it. We haven't been told when he'll be released but we've been getting info for ssi disability. He was so alert yesterday! I'm so happy. Today he was sleepy. I asked the nurse that is taking care of him if I'll be able to nurse he said he'll find out for me. He didn't know with Austin's gag reflex if he'll be able to or not but he's never taken care of him before so he said he'll ask and get word to me!

Day 14- He's 2 weeks old!!!

I can't believe that my little boy is 2 weeks old. Well in like 51 minutes! He has no PICC line in any more. So he has his feeding tube in his nose. He had a feeding last night at 9 and this morning and only was able to take 6mLs. He didn't have a gag reflux:( But it's alright. In time perhaps he will learn. I went to the hospital today with dad, mom, grandma kiyo AND Justin! Justin was jealous of dad holding Austin but it's alright. Not much more to update right now.
 

Day 13

So I hadn't updated yesterday and I'm sorry. So Austin is in a big boy bed. Off his H2O! oh and today he took 30mLs of milk by bottle!! omg he's improving so much. Yesterday we talked to the neurologist and she said that her only concern is that he doesn't ALWAYS have a gag reflux like he should. Which means he cannot protect his airway. Which could cause him to choke during a feeding. Occupational therapy is going to be working with him soon twice a day to do a bottle. But they are waiting for a bit.

Day 11

So today I called to see if they had the results from the EEG (See's if he is having seizure activity or not) and it came back negative! It doesn't mean if he comes off his anti seizure medicine he'll be better but means the tremors he was having wasn't seizures. AWESOME! OH and more good news!! He took 13mL of my breast milk by mouth today. They had to do the other 12mL by his feeding tube but small steps. His sucking is still a bit weak but they said they've been having him practice with his pacifier! So good news so far:)

Day 10

So today I got to go see Austin again. It was emotional for me because I've been looking at all his baby stuff that I have for him. He is doing good though. The results from the EEG weren't in so I will call tomorrow and hopefully get results. Also hes eating 25mLs now. They will try to do bottle feedings starting tomorrow! lets hope it goes well... oh  and the heating is off! hes keeping his temp for now and might be moved to a crib!! BIG steps yay!!!

Day 9

So I got to see Austin yesterday. They are running an EEG and hope we find out the results soon. I'm going to call to see if there are any results they said they might not find out today but it might be tomorrow till we find out. Because of it I didn't get to hold him. Hoping to hold him today because I want some of the kangaroo care so maybe I'll be able to get more milk in. I've been trying so hard to pump but having some trouble need to go during the day to talk to the lactation consultant again. But got to wait till Monday till Alex is around. I'm getting real frustrated with it. I just want to hold my baby right now and be able to bring him home. I seen more babies going home yesterday and broke down crying. 

If I did not want my VBAC (vaginal birth after c section) if I hadn't fought my doctor so bad about it he wouldn't of been so bad off. It's my fault. I wish I would of just taken the c section at 39 weeks. I have so much self guilt right now it's not even funny. 

Day 8

So I didn't get to go again because I'm still sick but my dad went to go see him. Plus my husband and mother in law. Baby steps but good baby steps! So he was moving a lot more. The nurse even commented that he was so different than yesterday! He SUCKED on his pacifier!! Alex made me a video I could watch it he was moving and pushing against their hands with his feet. Oh and holding their finger! They said he's doing so wonderful. They are even thinking of doing a bottle soon. They upped his feedings to 12mL. And thinking of upping their feedings again! I better keep on pumping. It's hard to keep up with him! He's 6lbs 13 oz which he was born 5lbs6oz. So he's getting to be a fat man!! Hoping tomorrow Justin and I feel better so I can go see my little man.